Hey blog, how are you? It's been a while, do you still want to be my friend?
I've been so busy lately, but I know it's a poor excuse for not visiting you often. Thing is, I've been busy with good things, so you should be happy for me. I've taken some bold steps, and some small ones that might not appear bold if you had to know about them, but for me they were moonlanding strides.
I have been so inspired lately, and it mostly has to do with a special person I've become close to lately. Now he might not know or understand this, but he inspires me. Not just creatively (yes, I almost want to write poetry and make paintings of my muse, can you believe it!), but also personally and professionally. He brings out a side of me that wants to see me be better, do things better, and become a better person to everyone around me.
This newly enforced courage - yes it's always been in me, but sometimes it gets a little murky when you are looking for it in yourself - has seen me take on some interesting challenges lately. Now you might argue that I was going to do all these things anyways, but I don't think I would have applied for that manager position, or run my first half marathon, or opened up to someone the way I have, with so much calmness and focus and belief in myself. It's almost easy to find someone who feels this way about you, but it's hard to find someone who feels this way about you, who you feel that way about too. I've not felt this way in a long time, and for a long time I didn't think I could get excited about someone, miss someone so that it hurts so good, want to know someone this way, like the person I am like this, need someone because I want to and not because I need to...
It's amazing how relationships, whether they are friendships or romantic etc, can bring out the best in you, inspire you to reach great heights, bring you into a deeper understanding of who you are and what you stand for and so much more. I can only thank God for the wonderful people I have in my life. Everyone of the people I choose to keep close are so special and serve a certain purpose, and I hope that I return that favour and serve them in a way that is meaningful and that they need from me. Parents, sibs, colleagues, old friends, new friends, special friends, book club friends, you are all special to me.
This blog entry should probably have been broken into more than one piece, because I really want to talk about special relationships, pushing myself and my competitive nature, this past weekend in Cape Town, and being thankful for what I've got. I think I've touched on the first topic a bit, but I still have lots to say about the rest.
In a nutshell, Cape Town was amazing this weekend. I did my first Two Oceans which was also my first half marathon. That's right, I ran 21,1km and I did it in 2h32min while Tweeting as much as I can. This has been one of the most empowering experiences in my life. The training, the commitment, the results, the liberation that comes with going through with it - it's been so inspirational that I can write about the whole shkebang for days. It made me feel that there's nothing I cannot do if I put my mind and my heart to it. And that is the truth, and it goes for everyone out there. Push yourself and test your limits, you'll be pleasantly surprised of what you're capable of!
I think I'll get to the other topics in a future blog post. I'm sleepy, I've had some sangria (which probably shows in the amount of gorrel I'm putting down here) and my mind is mostly with my Drummer Boy, so if I keep on writing it will become rambling - no wait, it's already turned into ramble!
Good night blogfriend, I hope you're not mad at me for being so absent, seeing that you know me so well I'm sure you'll understand better than anyone else why it's been this way.
PS - I got the job and will be negotiating my new terms with HR tomorrow, wish me luck, it's a bit nerve stirring!
All my love and words,
Ikasan
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